Goodbye Pump

The day has finally come. I have made the decision to say goodbye to the pump! Many of you know Carter is not able to breastfeed, so I have been pumping in order to still give him breast milk. This has been a very involved commitment, but I was willing to do anything for my little man. I have come to the point however, that I would rather be doing something else with my time (like loving on Carter) instead of pumping. I found myself always pumping during the times that Carter was happy and laughing because I know I could leave him alone for 20 minutes. I really wanted to spend these times with him. Basically, I am making excuses as to why I can not pump anymore. I just really don't want to do it. I feel drained from it, and I really don't want to bring the pump on the plane to Utah! So, I feel guilty, but I gave it my best shot.
I have been supplementing formula into Carter's diet for a few days now to get him used to it, and to hopefully increase his weight. Deep down I kind of wished he would not like the taste of it, but he actually will eat it pretty well. Formula stinks: it makes his poop stink, his burps stink, and his spit up stink. But, I guess it will be our food of choice now. I do have a freezer full of milk to still give him (which is another reason I have quit: I just don't have room to keep anymore). So, I am sorry my little man, your Mommy can not stand the pump anymore. Here is to more time in my day to play with Carter! Goodbye pump, I wont really miss you!!!!!